a rant because i’m feeling… unsuccessful.
so i’m 18, nearly 19, working in a bar part time. only GCSE’s and 3 mediocre A-Levels under my belt. worked in a hotel for 4 months in NZ and then a bar for 3 months here. i’ve recently been feeling like i’m just not doing anything worth anything. starting to feel like i’m behind all my friends, family and most of all like i’m disappointing everyone by just working behind a bar. i’m really stressing out, i need help deciding on what would be best for me, but i’m not getting that help. i need to know whether i should just apply for jobs and learn whilst working, or go for this apprenticeship with my dad. i’d rather not do the latter seeing as we’d just argue constantly! should i wait til next year and apply for university? 2 years late, but i mean would it be worth it? there’d be no point starting anything now due to me being in london for the summer, not many people will give me all that time off, when they expect me to work.
i really dont know what to do, and i wish i did. i dont want to leave my bar job, cause i LOVE the people i’ve met. i know that i shouldnt lose them, but i know it’ll happen. i really dont like important life decisions.
stressed and upset :(
a very confused jas.roe :/ x