a rant because i’m feeling… unsuccessful.

so i’m 18, nearly 19, working in a bar part time. only GCSE’s and 3 mediocre A-Levels under my belt. worked in a hotel for 4 months in NZ and then a bar for 3 months here.  i’ve recently been feeling like i’m just not doing anything worth anything. starting to feel like i’m behind all my friends, family and most of all like i’m disappointing everyone by just working behind a bar. i’m really stressing out, i need help deciding on what would be best for me, but i’m not getting that help. i need to know whether i should just apply for jobs and learn whilst working, or go for this apprenticeship with my dad. i’d rather not do the latter seeing as we’d just argue constantly! should i wait til next year and apply for university? 2 years late, but i mean would it be worth it? there’d be no point starting anything now due to me being in london for the summer, not many people will give me all that time off, when they expect me to work.

i really dont know what to do, and i wish i did. i dont want to leave my bar job, cause i LOVE the people i’ve met. i know that i shouldnt lose them, but i know it’ll happen. i really dont like important life decisions.

stressed and upset :(

a very confused jas.roe :/ x


st paddy’s day at work :)

st paddy’s day at work :)



last night….

well; we went to loughborough, and then on the way back went to camel club! yep, we ended up going out! like every thursday night!

i ended up getting very drunk :/ aftershock, absinthe and jagerbombs make jasmine very drunk. ended up so badly. regretful occurrences. ergh!


spontaneous road trip.

so me and my friend dont want to go out tonight, so we decided a way of getting round this would be a road trip. so we’re going to the beach.


my night off. 

my night off. 



i know full well i dont feel anything for him. we’re just friends, and by god dont i know it! had the opportunity last night and i just wasnt wanting him! shows something really?!

hes like my best friend. i dont want to ruin that. hes just my straight but should be gay best friend.


letsmakebelieve:

what a gorgeous little boy

letsmakebelieve:

what a gorgeous little boy


letswishuponastar:

Make a change and stop Joesph Kony
Who is Joseph Kony?: http://vimeo.com/37119711
Pledge Here: http://www.kony2012.com/
the deadline to stop Kony ends Dec. 31st 2012
If you don’t feel like watching the video, here’s a little summary: 
Joseph Kony lives in Central Africa. What Joseph does is, he abducts African kids. He takes them and he keeps them. He makes the boys killers, usually they have to kill their families. When girls are abducted they are turned into sex slaves and are raped. There is no way out of his group: Lord’s Resistance Army, AKA the LRA. He has adbucted over 30,000 children and had made them child soldiers. he won’t stop what he is doing until he is caught, he found out that the US is now on a making to look for him making him harder to find. Right now, Kony is invisible because no one knows about him.. no one. Tell as many people about Kony as you can and make him visible and know. Donate money if you can. Make him visible. we need change, and we need difference. we need Kony to be famous so we can stop the harm of innocent children, this won’t hurt your blog.. just reblog it.

letswishuponastar:

Make a change and stop Joesph Kony


Who is Joseph Kony?: http://vimeo.com/37119711

Pledge Here: http://www.kony2012.com/

the deadline to stop Kony ends Dec. 31st 2012

If you don’t feel like watching the video, here’s a little summary: 

Joseph Kony lives in Central Africa. What Joseph does is, he abducts African kids. He takes them and he keeps them. He makes the boys killers, usually they have to kill their families. When girls are abducted they are turned into sex slaves and are raped. There is no way out of his group: Lord’s Resistance Army, AKA the LRA. He has adbucted over 30,000 children and had made them child soldiers. he won’t stop what he is doing until he is caught, he found out that the US is now on a making to look for him making him harder to find. Right now, Kony is invisible because no one knows about him.. no one. Tell as many people about Kony as you can and make him visible and know. Donate money if you can. Make him visible. we need change, and we need difference. we need Kony to be famous so we can stop the harm of innocent children, this won’t hurt your blog.. just reblog it.

(via letsmakebelieve)


sorry i’ve been non tumblring for weeks :(

been so busy with work, and whatnot. and the internet at home is just shit :/ so i struggle to get on!

still working at the nightclub, and still loving it. become practically BEST friends with one of the guys there. spend most days with him, and we just have a right laugh! hes awesome :) 

got offered a summer of work down in london! so excited! live in london for 6 months, work for a catering company at major events every other week, it will be amazing! :D 

i’ll try find some interesting photos now

much love followers x


Q
where have you gone off to!
A

i’m really sorry :( i’m back at home now, and the internet hardly ever works :( so i’m like never on here! :/

How the hell are you?! hows uni?! :) x


the funniest night. thursday was awesome :)
(i’m the one with the arm round the guys neck)

the funniest night. thursday was awesome :)

(i’m the one with the arm round the guys neck)



cause i’m bored.

cause i’m bored.